Miscellaneous lyrics by the Jan Doyle Band



Feral Nihilist

Drowning in waves of childish pain
Left inside the fury
Speaking in language unknown
Sensing the futility

Halted and softly clasping childish ways
Saving the tension

Unleashing the wirey limbs
Scratching for some memory
Remember the single fool's anatomy

A teacher follows
Handle so carefully with

those lost shallows

Sitting watching those fragments
From the outside from the eye
Without your punishment I'm
wishing, hunting for you
Painting an ornament for ornaments sake,
Losing a twice fortunate face
Again a bafflement, again it burns
Lost lost forever
Forever lost

By Derek Williams And Duncan Timiney

The Stillborn Ghost

Drops of liquid flesh
falling from
Clouds of tangled limbs
saying how
They wish they'd been born
away from
Tainted, flowing skies
Snowflakes make a mess
falling on
The face which softly grins
looking at
God caught out in the storm
trying to
Stop the fear and lies
She was putting on that dress
with the
Fingers and eyes and things
saying how
She'd be broken, she'd be torn
towards her
Strangled, woeful cries
He struggled from her caress
as the
Knife cut off his dreams
gagging as
He splattered across the lawn
she said
She'd be born as he dies
as she
Spat into his eyes

By Duncan Timiney

Imperceptable smiles
She can only save herself by the time I returned
As she reached for her neck, my heart
skipped a beat
skipped a beat
She can only save herself, despair does that
Contents scattered around, and my heart
Skipped a beat
Skipped a beat
It's swollen with recoil, Despair does that
Why but I felt like laughing
Skipped a beat
Skipped a beat
Were you shot at?
Were you shot?
Waiting for an accident
Waiting to be shot
By Duncan Timiney

Last Rites

She lies to herself
I get caught up
A tangled web she weaves
No more pleasure from this
This shakey bridge we lie on
I wish I could just once
Kiss those lips
Of dark white clouds
I'll see them no more
When I'm no longer
When my heart dies
Last rites

Written By D.Timiney

Ailihporcen

Here's a song called Ailiphorcen
My tongue rolls in it's mouth
And my ulcer's tasting nice
And it's cold dead lips taste good
My eyes caress it's eyes
And the metal rubs against my bone
And it's shaven head feels smooth
My god, I'll never be alone
And I can't believe it wouldn't approve
And our faces fuse together
My limbs locked in utter perfection
Spasms of guilt now fade away
Nanoseconds away from pemphiguous ecstasy
I can't move
Can't move


Words by D. Timiney music written by A.Timiney, D.Williams

Blackheart

I'm looking at you now not knowing
If it always has been or is it just new
I'm seeing something I don't think I like
And I just don't really know if it is you
You seem to be such contradiction
I think I see a heart that's black
Is this you or is it fiction?
Are feelings things you lack?
I thought at one time that I knew you
But now you seem so different
Is intolerance and scathing hate so true
I wonder where it is that you went
You tell me something and gain my trust
Then I hear you've been saying the opposite
Do you just act like this or are you lost?
I just don't know if I can bear to wait
Unwilling to care for just one tiny moment
You're always putting yourself first
If you could stop considering what you want
Just for once open up and be last
It hurts to see you treat him this way
He needs someone to care for him
'So what I've problems too' you always say
So you manipulate and use at your whim

Written By D.Williams

Break Me Down

My realist friends
You've beaten me again
Broken my beliefs
Shattered my everyday spine
I stand here before you
A fallen man
Smashed your will into my face
Showed me how worthless I am
You violated my private self
All the things so dear to me
You strangled away
Touching black my sanctity
All my principles
Turned again
Now they work against me
As I fade by your smile
So easy for you
Just one twisted hand
You stand back and watch
As I tear out my worth
I can't go on
Believing my gracious lies
I have no option
But to worship your skill
Honesty is the gun of the fool
Always pointed at his own head
Never running out of bullets
Always firing, never stopping
The good guys always die
Horrific internal deaths
Plagued by guilt and failures
Always dying by their own hand
You think I'm over now
You think you've killed my light
But I'm still burning my friend
You made an oversight
I'll take these shattered pieces
Of hope and love and dreams
And I'll weld them back together
Negating your good work
I know I'm right
I see the hate in your eyes
As you follow the crowd
And wonder when you died
Your world is empty
You've got nothing left
Except to try and crush
All the things they made you lose
You gave in to your fears
I'll never give in
I'm always gonna be like this
Fuck your mass illusion
You want to replicate your weakness
See it all happen to someone else
Just to convince yourself
It could have happened to anyone
But you're the fool
Because I'm bathed in light
I'll always be shining
You're cut by the night
You'll waste your whole life
Laughing at me
But I'll still be standing
When you're a forgotten memory
Written By: Ron Hope

Tranquility


I want to feel this
It's so real, amongst these illusions
I just want to fall
And care for none of this
Except her
I want an extended touch
Reach through the barrier above me
Caress her face
Feel her dreams
But how can I let myself feel like this?
She'll never be mine
I'll stand by the way
And watch her live, and feel her life
But she's so warm
All the things, I thought I'd never find
I've found in her
But I'm too late again, I'm always too late
And I almost told her how I felt
Standing there, seeing her face
Feeling the words swim in my mouth
Ready to pour, I'd deluge to her
Looking down at her delicate hands
Wanting to feel, their soft warm touch
And seeing then, the end of my dream
A circular shrine, there on her finger
A strip of metal, so precious to her
Linking her life, to that of another
It looked so right, there on her finger
How could I speak, take her faith in vain?
My feelings now, have no home
They drift inside, and look to her
They reach for her, but I have to tell them
It's already decided, we have no end
Oh, but I want to, just to tell her
I need her touch, like I need her words
To secure my life, in this warm blue mass
Please heal me just once Please
Can I control, the force of you
That I hold, inside of me
I want to fall, and be in love
And embrace this feeling, engulf this building
To need you, and hold you
Protect you from these danger signs around
You're so precious, I won't let them harm you
You're everything I ever wanted for
But you've already found your other
I hope he feels like this for you
I hope he knows, what he has
The way I know, what I don't have
Will he save you forever?
Can he comprehend your smile?
I hope he feels the joy of you
As I feel the lack of you
Please, please stop this feeling
Don't smile when you see me
Don't talk to me of love and peace
And other things, I'll never have
If you're happy now
That's all I want
I hope your dreams never shatter
As mine just have
I sit here now, and think of her
Knowing I cannot stop what I must
Don't think of her now
Don't yearn for her now
There's no happy ending
Just myself, in a room, all alone

Written By: Ron Hope